I have had a few incidences in the recent past related to the title of this post and that got me into putting my thoughts to pen though I am still wondering if one should really change the phrase "putting my thoughts to pen" to something that is more let us say modern agey.
Anyways coming back to the title of the topic. My reminiscing started when the other day I went to a Baskin Robins place to get some ice-cream. out of the blue I was reminded of an incident. A few months back my friend had taken ill and had to be admitted to Malar hospital. I used to keep my friend company during the day and some other friends used to cover the night shift. One day I got really angry at my friend because my friend had had ice-cream from Baskin-Robins the previous night inspite of being sick. I scolded my friend and was rude and that sort of created a wall between us that I probably would ever be able to break. The problem with my being angry is that I might tend to make stinging remarks like a scorpion which I later regret having made.
My later visit to the Baskin-Robins made me ask the question: Why was I really angry at my friend? I realized the answer to my question. Because my friend had had ice-cream without me. It was as simple as that. I was purely being childish.
This realization got me thinking about all the times I have been angry in my life and realized that most of the times I have been angry for stupid reasons which could have been sorted out without much ado. For example the ice-cream episode could have been sorted out if I had just left my friend got some ice-cream from Baskin-Robins and had it together. Period.
The story doesnt end there. I have had a weird kind of experience with my being angry as well. Recently we have some new computers in our office and the keyboards are not very good. In the sense that one makes a lot of noise while typing. This one day I wanted to take a bit of a nap in the office when my officemate was busy working. I got a serious headache from my officemate typing on the keyboard (it seemed like a rattlesnake had entered the office) and I really got pissed off and angry. So I got up from my resting position with a rage that would burn the whole of matscience as Kannagi burned the whole of madurai. I also started typing hard on my keyboard with full music on (of course i didnt want to hear the drumming). This was supposed to be my revenge. Surprising enough I managed to complete a section of my work which had been pending for I dont know may be ages. I was surprised at my capabilities actually. Thankfully this officemate of mine knew me a bit more didnt judge me and we are friends still! These types of incidences have happened to me before. In the sense due to anger on someone I was able to shut that portion of my life completely and shift focus fully to a new thing at which I have excelled.
But now I am totally confused. On one side i have my anger ruining my relationships and on the other I have anger trying to help me to work better. What I take back from this reminiscing is that if I do get angry then instead of shouting and being rude, if I could just channelize my anger to something else then I might actually do something good.
Anyways coming back to the title of the topic. My reminiscing started when the other day I went to a Baskin Robins place to get some ice-cream. out of the blue I was reminded of an incident. A few months back my friend had taken ill and had to be admitted to Malar hospital. I used to keep my friend company during the day and some other friends used to cover the night shift. One day I got really angry at my friend because my friend had had ice-cream from Baskin-Robins the previous night inspite of being sick. I scolded my friend and was rude and that sort of created a wall between us that I probably would ever be able to break. The problem with my being angry is that I might tend to make stinging remarks like a scorpion which I later regret having made.
My later visit to the Baskin-Robins made me ask the question: Why was I really angry at my friend? I realized the answer to my question. Because my friend had had ice-cream without me. It was as simple as that. I was purely being childish.
This realization got me thinking about all the times I have been angry in my life and realized that most of the times I have been angry for stupid reasons which could have been sorted out without much ado. For example the ice-cream episode could have been sorted out if I had just left my friend got some ice-cream from Baskin-Robins and had it together. Period.
The story doesnt end there. I have had a weird kind of experience with my being angry as well. Recently we have some new computers in our office and the keyboards are not very good. In the sense that one makes a lot of noise while typing. This one day I wanted to take a bit of a nap in the office when my officemate was busy working. I got a serious headache from my officemate typing on the keyboard (it seemed like a rattlesnake had entered the office) and I really got pissed off and angry. So I got up from my resting position with a rage that would burn the whole of matscience as Kannagi burned the whole of madurai. I also started typing hard on my keyboard with full music on (of course i didnt want to hear the drumming). This was supposed to be my revenge. Surprising enough I managed to complete a section of my work which had been pending for I dont know may be ages. I was surprised at my capabilities actually. Thankfully this officemate of mine knew me a bit more didnt judge me and we are friends still! These types of incidences have happened to me before. In the sense due to anger on someone I was able to shut that portion of my life completely and shift focus fully to a new thing at which I have excelled.
But now I am totally confused. On one side i have my anger ruining my relationships and on the other I have anger trying to help me to work better. What I take back from this reminiscing is that if I do get angry then instead of shouting and being rude, if I could just channelize my anger to something else then I might actually do something good.
